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 So on Thursday my first DM (Dungeon Master) reached out to me asking if I wanted to take part in a ongoing campaign that he is apart of and was running this week Session. As it a rotating DM situation and I thought that as he does great voice and has nothing else to do and I always have fun in his sessions I thought why not.  So I spent a good thirty minutes figuring out what I was going to play, because I was coming into a group and I didn't want to come into a group that won't work/gel right. As at the end of the day it a TTRPG (Table-top roleplaying game) and we have to work well as a group, like yes they might be evil player characters but they has to be a reason for them to be apart of a group. So after thinking and looking through all the options I went with a satyr sorcerer of wild magic, in which I called Ona. She ran away from her parents after she moved around from village to village and always seeing destorcian in it wake. So she thought that this isn't a life f...

 Hi. so since i have been social distancing a lot of late i thought grat what a great time to start writing again with the script that i put a pause on all those months ago try and get more of it done. As I thought that just maybe if i try and get it finished even if it just a poliet for a tv show then maybe I can say that I finally feel good about myself.  However, it so crap, like I don't know why I am hurting myself like this. I am not a script writer, I am not a writer in genral. So I don't know why I told myself I can do this. Like yes I know I am eight pages in and how can i know that i am going to be crap with that many pages? But I am just going over and over it on google docs thinking to myself that if I ever finish this. Share this peice of rubbish with anybody they will laugh at my face and basically forbid me from ever writing ever again. That how bad i think it is.  Yeah it not even funny bad that it good bad, it bad,bad. Like why do I have such a creative mi...

Some of you know I have tattoos and I do want another one and I really want to try and feel up my left arm at some point. However the main problem is I don't know what to get. As I don't want to add just about anything because I do have two other tattoos on that arm, so have to fit the tattoos around them. One of them is a black and grey tattoo of shooting stars with the quote "A place where we belong." and that is on my shoulder. The other tattoo is a colour tattoo of a claim with a pearl inside. it has like purple smoke and green stars/dimonds it has the colouration of pink, green and purple.  both of them I love dearly the first one was my first ever tattoo and the show is which the quote from means a lot to me. Other one i love how even after a year of having it how fresh and how well it kept it colour. as it on my lower arm/ wrist area of curse I move the area quiet a lot.  So I probably will go back the tattoo artsit who did my colour tattoo or the quote, but th...

 Hello everybody, It my last day of freedom to i have to start social distancing from tomorrow. fun times. Like they still things i have to do in the week due to things I have to do I have to do them. The reason I social distancing is because as some of you know I will be going to have surgery on the 30th September and I have to do 7 days of social distancing followed by 3 days of self isolation before I go in. I know it going to be hard to remember that i have to social distance from people but like I need to go to the shops in town to buy some clothes for my over night stay and how can you expect everybody else to social distance from you and wear a face covering. I know it is going to be tough but I am so thankful that after a year of waiting I finally getting this operation done. So while I am social distancing I am going to watch films espically Everybody Talking about Jamie cause it amazing and truly magical i know i will watch that a couple of times. I might watch some stuff...

Welcome back  So on the 17th of September i went to the movie premiere of the film Everybody talking about Jamie. If you know me and let face it, most of the people who read my blogs are friends of mine and you all know how much I love the show and if i could drag you to see the show I would at the first chance I get. so being invited to see the film at the Sheffield Premiere at the place where it all started. It feels so strange that on February 8th 2017 I was queuing up for a ticke that cost £1 for the public dress, not knowing what I was going into, to then watching it that night to last night. Last night when I got home i cried because of how emotional happy I was to have seen something as beautiful as Everybody Talking about Jamie which started as a Sheffield show to a show for everyone over the years. Like I made the right decision in wearing waterproof mascara last night that how much i cried from how happy I was and how honoured that this little nobody was invited. There wa...

  Hello it me again, first off i would like to say sorry for my late post. I hope everyone is well and having a lovely week. Most week on a Tuesday evening from 6 till 10 I play Dungeons and Dragons at Theatre Deli. However, i am taking the next few weeks of. The other thing I am having a slight break from is Threapy as the type of therapy I am getting and the therpist leaving means they going to be a break till at least November. Which is a blessing in reality cause from this coming monday I have to limit where I am going and also after surgery on the 30th I will be a bit sore. So that going to be fun…. Anyway, I’ve been preparing myself for the premiere since I’ve been invited. I am pretty much fully ready. Dress  Shoes Make-up Hair cut Nails Money for Taxi home and back + some for drinks My fabulous self To be honest I am always fabulous I hope anyway. :P Apart from the getting ready I’ve been trying to get back into reading. I am reading the last book in the caraval series...

How do i go back? before the day that i made that biggest mistake before the fear of this is the end crying out for this all to be over  for the hurt is too much to bare But I am taking a stand with my fist up in the air fighting cause this isn't over. Cause my life is worth so much more Then the names people call me more then the face you see I am stronger then you dare to think I am a fighter a warrior, a peacemaker Do not take my kindness  for weekness cause you will know what come when you add fuel to a flame

 WOW! I was scrolling through my Facebook memories today and it showed me a post I've moved to Sheffield, five years today, I moved Sheffield on the 10th of September 2016. When I moved to Sheffield I never thought of half the things I've done while living here I would have done. Has it been easy? no, it hasn't been easy. Would it be easier if I went back to live with my Auntie in Malta? Who knows but it is not something I plan on doing. Would it be easier to move back to Leicester where you have friends and family?" No, you want to know why because I have friends here in Sheffield and some of them are like my family and they mean more to me than I can ever think of. A lot of my family down in Leicester I don't talk to anyway for the sake of my mental health as they like to pull me down. So I am very grateful that I can call the city of Sheffield my home. I would love to say that I will stay here for the rest of my life, but I do one day when my mental health allow...